I’m trying so hard to run from my feeling for you richard…. I haven’t seen or talked to you in months. I even stopped thinking well of you and seeing you for all the messed up things you did to me…. but then I went through his aunts facebook and I saw his face… that sweet innocent looking face…. and those kind eyes and my heart. Just melted all over again…. but even the devil is beautiful…
I miss you lovies… its gonna suck hangingout with your aunt hearing about all of you and knowing I shouldn’t ask about you and that I can’t see yoou.
Lovies…. I wish you were still my friend… If you were you would never have let that happen to me… And if it did like it did… You would put him in a hospital for me…. I miss you Richard….. I wish I could go crawl in your bed right now and put my head on your chest and feel your arms around me protecting me like before…. I need you to tell me I’m going to be okay.
